I realize i have this very very bad habit of pushing problems to the back of my head. To a place where its hidden. As long as I am in my comfort zone, nothing else matters. I don't like it. In general i don't like ppl who are like that but why am i doing the same?

I think i am starting to become a person i am not. I used to be very "cool" bout lotsa things which were going on around me. Be it my partner and friends but recently i fee that i am overly concern bout certain things thats going on in my life. Certain reactions were probably sparked off by my bad mood and certain were just cause i didnt know how to react to the situation.

I hate it when people ask mi whats my problem cause if i knew then it probably isnt a problem to start with,

Many should know i am in a relationship by now. Seriously its been so long since i have a proper relationship and i dont really know what to expect. There are so many voices around me thats clouding my whole mind. Its really disturbing. Relationships arent that simple anymore. Its not just being happy anymore. Its that plus a lot more. I get mixed feelings all the time. I dunno if i can handle it. I have many failed rs thats why i tell my frens neva to get involve in too many. Coz rs are like candies, they can rot your teeth (or perceptions toward rs). Guess i just gotta wait and see although i am going to be under the "phase out" or "obsolete" category in a few years. Maybe then i will console myself by saying that its the soul that matters.

I am glad my bf said those things he said bout settling down with me but i will not take that as a promise. (so if u are reading this dont worry! i feel happy when u say things like that but i have neva taken that as a promise from you) I believe in a rs its bout getting to know a person. If any party feels that the other party isnt suitable. Please opt out. That way one wont put anyone through the agony of living together. But as for now, other than a few quarrels, everything is bright and green.

For work, life's good. I am at my new job and this is truly a 9 to 6 job. Anyway am working at Morgan Stanley now if there are still people who reads my blog dunno bout it. Well dont really wana talk bout work coz its kinda sensitive.

Alritey will go wash up and go to bed. I truly hope that next week and weekend will be wonderful unlike the 2 weekends tt just past.

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