Friday, October 26, 2007
Ok i am not talking bout anyone now. My definition of a relationship is simple. I want both of us to be happy. Being happy brings about trust and love. Therefore being happy is the root to making a relationship work. Definitely both parties will not be happy most of the time but once the conflict/unhappiness is resolved, everything shd be back to normal. There is simply no point in harping on the unhappiness. Not value adding at all.
Analogy: A pushed B and B fell onto the floor in a basketball game. B hurt his knee cap. A was remorseful and apologise frantically. Should B just forgive him and stop mentioning it anymore? Or should B be angry and keep bringing up the incident even after many many days? Hello!! A has eyes, he will be reminded of his mistake everytime he meets B and sees the scar on his knees. He will definitely feel bad about it and it was an accident!
Someone made me lose my self confidence by flagging out all my bad points. It was after I left him that I realise I am worth much more. I am never ever going to let anyone make me feel that way anymore. Helping each other change for the better is definitely good but accidentally dashing each other's ego is a big NO NO.
Over the years, I have learnt to take a step back in relationship and look at the bigger picture. If something is not going to work out, i will not force myself upon it anymore. Leave before the feelings get outta hands. Guys are always better when it comes to managing hurt. Girls will just crumble. I am talking bout in general. When things dont work out, i hope i will just smile and tell myself, "there will be a better guy out there for you".
There are certain implied meaning in certain conversations i choose to ignore. Think what u want to and if u think that i am not worth the time, leave.
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Friday, October 05, 2007
Oooooo..... this is the resurrection of the blog. Last night as i was doing my work i realise that the application has given me a this nic called "JAK". I thought it was totally cool and i decided that should be my name from today on.
Another big change in my life is i have resigned as an auditor. Many will have the question " have u found a new job?" in mind. well the answer to that is... nope i do not have a new job and yes i resigned without a job. :) Its nice many people are showering me with concern. even clients i barely know. They have been sending me jobs applications and offering valuable opinions which i truely appreciate. Me, being me, is ever so lazy. I have not started looking for a job or sending out jobs application. Maybe coz i sincerely want to find a job that suits me and not sth i will quit on after a year or two. I hope i dont go back into audit again. Even if i do, i hope i can stay there for good.
Being an auditor has really taught me alot. I met many people and interacted with many people who has more experience and are much wiser than me. Clients, seniors, managers... I am happy to have been exposed to this environment.
Another big change in my life is i am unattached again. ok no further elaboration on that but yes i am single and available again. I met up with Tony some time back. It was then that i realise that all the feelings I tot i still harboured for him is already gone. Maybe it has disappeared long time ago. well it did take mi a while to know.
I hurt someone very deeply some time ago. I hope i have met him much later where the shadow of my past relationships have moved away. I know till today the hurt and the sore is still there. I regret hurting him and i hope there is something i can do bout it. If there is something to salvage the frenship we had, i hope he can be more explicit and tell me bout it.
My last day of work is still not confirmed. will update soon.
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