Mel is beside mi as i am writing this blog...so u know... i gotta be extra careful with i am gg to say coz this is the ONLY entry he is going to see....

Since this is the first and maybe the last entry he is gg to see i will talk bout us. oki.... wat was all that bout not getting together with a sagittarius anymore? hmmm... he is another sagittarius... so when i decided to get together i have given up on the horoscope shit... well afterall mi and doggy (my good fren btw) are totally different people.

Oki.... i dun really know wat to write with him staring at the screen... lets see... we went to spizza today... and obviously he wasnt full but he said "well i will be full after a while" but i seriously doubt so.. hahaha...
*he said i am boring...*

okie.... so i handed up my fyp project... how do i feel bout tt? hmmmm... glad+glad+happy+glad... thats all. this week should be a packed week... not in terms of skool work but partyin!!!

oki tts the end.... not much today.. haha anyway i din finish my last entry but seriously it wasnt an impt one... tataz~!

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well it kinda sad to be in hall on sunday evening ALONE..... well i shdnt make myself sound so pathethic rite hahaha....coz i am actually waiting for mel to come back so we can go makan. Poon suggested that we go to IMM for dinner and i must really thank her for making this recommendation since i really have no idea where we can makan already.

FYP is gg to be officially over tml and i am so so glad.. all the passive phrasing and changing of content was making me real mad...

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Sometimes people make themselves believe what they want to believe even though deep inside them they know that there is a high chance that all these are not.

Some say that the word "love" has been underrated and i totally agree. When someone says that he loves you, u simply take it as it is, with little doubt. But seriously what that person really mean is..."hey i like u and enjoy ur company at this point in time"

I found out sth today which make me feel a bit... well i dunno how to describe that kinda feeling. It just made me lose faith in what i hear from guys. Well i know i should not generalise but i cant help it. Initially, every word seem so so true. well...but as i have said.... it "seem". what was i thinkin?

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oohhhh we handed our second fyp draft today...strictly speaking its an hour ago. We work till 2am at ivan's place yesterday... yawn... tiring... we got back some comments. well it was abit better than the first set of comments we got. So am glad! :) hmmm.... hopefully we will do well this time.

Feel kinda lost with some of the modules so feelin quite scared of the exams already. will study harder after fyp and i shall not keep lessons anymore. Have to be sure bout this.

Yawn so tired...gg to take a nap now....

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Do i have my emotions written all over my face or is it so obvious in my actions? ok... maybe more training would help greatly. well maybe it wouldnt even need training..

EEEuuuWWW!!!... i can see the the upcoming week would be a terrible terrible one. FYP and the terrible foreign exchange tutorial would be enough to kill mi. Please please please... hope everything goes well this week.

sigh just now i was thinking.... hmm quite disappointed with myself ah... i have so little self discipline.. always not doing work... partying and enjoying myself all day.. have been giving myself too many excuses to slack. well i will start studying soon and after the exams i will reward myself with a big big big shopping spree!!! Yippeeee!!!

Oh did i say? i am gg to Ernst and Young for my first job and hopefully i can get in in late august... wana laze ard and do nth for a while.

Will be gg to the NBS convo ball! yeah...... i wana have a sexy and nice gown..hopefully i haven put on too much weight then. Have been eating and drinking quite abit lately. not too good i guess. well... all these are still far away dreams so in the meantime i shall just concentrate on my STUDIES!

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Guess what! was chilling out at this open space at DXO when i saw a shooting star........ the first time in my entire life. And immediately i close my eyes and made a wish! the same wish i have been making recently. so happy to see it.. though i dont really know how much truth there is in the saying that ur wish will come when u wish upon a star.

Saw the band, "eic", just now at esplanade and it is said that its a good band. Well the songs played were quite good and the guys were full of enthusiasm. Well we din stay there for long since it was quite crowded and it was kinda hot. We also saw a ger doing sing n drum inside esplanade. She is pretty, elegant and she played and singed so so well. was totally mesmerized by her.

Feel so drain and tired today. Maybe i am not feeling too well too.Our fyp draft wasnt too good and so we have to improve on it. We only have a week left. OH NO! i am so so worried. hopes everything goes well..

Oki gotta go rest... feel like dying already. Nite nite everyone.. have a good rest!

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hmmm broke a glass bottle just now... din have a broom.. so clumsy mi cut myself.... oouucchhhh!!!

"the small piece of glass was fixated on my index finger. I look at it and scream... "ooouuuccchh!!!" (not that anyone would reply or come to my rescue since i was alone). I paused for a while wondering wat i shd do... wat a dumb thing to do. realising how stupid i was, i quickly remove the small piece of glass..with some screams definitely. sobz.... clumsy mi...

oki this weekend is quite a busy one... meeting for 306 discussion at raffles place. hmmm wonder is there really is a quiet place in that vicinity.

I found out a big gossip yesterday!!!! actually i am sort of a "retired gossip queen" so this is of course not first hand information. well i gotta know that W and H are together... well i was surprise coz i din even know they were dating. well i am just being a kpo coz this is really non of my business.. hahaha..

someone suggested i start writing a blog to keep everyone updated of the latest gossips in NBS. Well i would very much like to do that if nobody finds out that its actually me writing it. if not i will most probably get beaten up, hated or killed in skool. well i am in the last year already so its not fun anymore starting this gossip page.

What nbs can do is to get someone to start a forum page.. anyone can post of the gossips in nbs and they can keep thier identity a mystery. hahaha. This benefits 3 parties.
1. People who are curious of gossips
2. "Gossipees" can know what is being said of them so that they can reflect or rebut
3. Saving "Gossipers" who are going to explode coz of information overload

Well i think this ia a super cool and brilliant idea. This page should be started by a gossipy person so that she can lead the crowd and get everyone to express their opinion. Suddenly i feel so smart... dont laugh k... i believe that if there is really such a site, it will be a hit! hahaha....

Yawn... i better start doing something constructive.

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Hmm actually i suddenly remember that its nearing some date.. one of my fren is flying over to Taiwan soon. Well i dont know if i should wish him bon voyage coz i dunno if he will appreciate it or not so i have decided to wish him a safe journey here. If he still bothers to come here, then he will see if not then nvm.. haha... anyway "Bon voyage! have fun during the trip... and though there are many cute gers in Taiwan, dont do the wrong stuff..haha."

Well today someone surprised mi with subway's turkey melt. haha...funny boy... merely told him last nite that i have the urge of eating subway and he really travelled down to holland v to get it for me. So touched. So Margaret teased him, "If she wants the stars in the sky, u going to get it for her?" was really touched though i din show it as many know i am not really good at showing ppl my appreciation. haha..

Fyp is almost dont and i really appreciate my gpmates. They are really nice people. Ivan's mommy is forever providing meals at his place. We feel so paiseh to have to trouble his mom so much. I am really glad that we have worked quite well though there are some arguments sometimes. We had quite alot of fun at these sessions too, the chatting, gossiping and mahjonging really made fyp something more interesting. Also, Margaret's ever contagious laughter added lots more fun to everything. Having Ivan's fast brain speeded everything up too. All in all, glad we are near completion. Tml we are handing up our first draft. hopes everything turns out well!

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Sometimes hints just dont make sense to our narrow mind (well maybe sometimes u choose to block out stuff which u dont wana believe) until the hard facts is blatantly presented to us. Then everything starts to sink in and u start to accept and blame yourself for not hitting the obvious. Eventually you feel embarrassed for having to push the person for the obvious.

That was what happened to me but for one thing, it made me clear. It made me certain that i am never going to let what i did happen again.

Well i learnt that there are many things u have to rationalize before u can make certain decisions and even though the decision is going to hurt the other party, u still gotta abide by ur stand. If not, the eventual person getting hurt will be you. Girls are so lousy at rationalizing... haha...i shall not give examples since this is a highly sensitive topic. But look at the gers around you, sometimes the things they do is really absurd.. but well, i am a ger myself so i wont say much. Its sometimes quite good to look with ur heart. People who look with their brains seem too materialistic.. haha...

Some thhings have come to a close and i am not going to mention anymore. Memories will be locked up and kept in a insignificant part of my mind and it will fade away with time. I hope no one will bring up the past anymore.

Currently i am happy with my life now. There are many things which is making my life wholesome and filled with anticipation. These are my busy skool work (not tt i put alot of efort in that), my frens, my social life, my convo trip, the convo ball, makeover, clubbing next weekend at mos, my first job ever, my fyp and last but not least my dearest "someone". hahah... Such a poor boy, i have forbid him to look at my blog and he said he really hasnt done so. haha... so guai hor..

will continue later gg to have lunch....

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Rarely listen to 933 but today i heard someone talkin bout this song over 933....... think the title is "yuan lai" by Lin Junjie.. think the lyrics are quite meaningful. haha..

Today was a good and rush day.. really love the time sepnt at villa bali again today.. love it! such a nice place with nice ambience... where to find!!

Lookin forward to gg to a sec skoolmate pub tml at central mall..hopefully it will be a good time. Gotta meet up with "da bian"! haven met him for so long hahaha...feels kinda funny but i guess when we meet again that feeling will disappear. Going to do proj in the morning...so sad... but still gotta do coz its work! hahaha....

oki gotta sleep soon..nite nite everyone!

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Went to Chinablack on friday nite. There was some cultural performance and Kel and Hubert performed. Was trying my best to control the videocam well but i think i was too clumsy. haha.. Well i wish Kel all the best between him and Adlena. Its neva too late to try.. but if u dont try, u will surely regret.

Saw a hall 7 fren whom i used to be quite close with in the past. Well.. he appeared quite cold. I dunno why. Perhaps it was coz of the incident that happened recently but i can assure him that as his fren I was just being concern. It was neva my intention to hurt his relationship. But if he feels that i am the kind who will state things on baseless grounds then be it.

Any-anyways... Had fun with all the people who were there... margaret, Jane, Leon, Kaiming, Kel, Chiang, Clarence, Serene, Yx, Sophia and last but not least my dearest Mel... Hehe...drank quite abit coz we were really having fun. Jane really got mi during the 5-10 game and marg's stupid scissors paper stone game... haha.. The songs were ok.. not as bad as i expected. Din know that Mel drank super alot too. In the end a drunken taking care of another. We have no idea wat time we left the club and wat time we got home. Shows how gone we were.

On Sat i went over to his house for a while.. and tt SPENCER!!!!! he is so so intelligent... and he really knows how to scare me siah...

Me: Peep outta the room to see where he is

Him: Pretend to be sitting near the door and enjoyin the scenary. Pretended that he din give a damn bout mi

Me: Took 2 steps out slowly.

Him: Still pretented he was not looking. Occasional glances though....

Me: Pluck out my courage and head towards kitchen without looking at him

Him: Charged at mi!!!!!

Me: Scream!!!!!!!!!!!

Then everyone in the house was alarmed. hahahha.... shit feel so embarrassed. I will conquer naughty Spencer one day.. then i will be the one scaring him.. haha.. waiting for this day to come. Still refuse to call his name since he is so naughty.... haha

Went to have dim sum at geylang that day... the food was good and after that went over to east coast for a walk. Have avoided that vicinity for a while coz it brings back painful memories but.. after much thoughts... since its over, i should be more open. Well it was a good nite and i realise that there is a food centre there which is similar to Newton's. Well this weekend was a well spent one.. and yesterday.. i had a good rest.

Went to watch "i not stupid too" with my "pet dog".. was quite a touching show. Since our family has somehow been through that, i find that it really reflects reality. The words said were quite identical in some ways. Some might say that the show is a bit exaggeratin but other than the parents kneeling down part and the 3G part, i feel that all the other parts are quite true. Kids today are getting harder and harder to handle. Wonder what will happen when its my turn to have my own kids. *Shivers* dont wana think bout it....

Gotta start on Fyp now...if not my night would be burnt...... tataz~!

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Photographs are really powerful memories refresher. Just a moment ago i was looking through all the photographs stored in my computer and i realised i have so many of them. Some of the photographs were taken two years back. Interesting! i noticed how much i have changed since then.. haha.. of course for the better... hmm.. well i will post up the photographs one of these days when i feel like it.

Oops i am putting on weight again! i cant believe myself. Is sadness and misery the only way to make me lose weight?? haha... i hope not. Well i better watch my diet and not let myself grow any fatter. Think the aunties at medical centre think tt i am crazy... gg there every 2 days to check on my weight. haha....

Any-anyways.... its the beginning of my one week break! yeah.. lalala i am a free woman.. not tt i was veri sudious earlier but the thought of hols just excite me. But but... there is FYP. I guess tt will be fun as well given my "funny" fyp mates.

Tml is chinablack nite.. haha.. i hope i dont get too high and show the ugly side of me. haha.. someone's hoping to see how i behave when i club. Wont show u! gotta have lotsa determination to stay sober.. haha... Hope ticket sale is good currently. Going to inhale so much second hand smoke since i am gg to be there from around 8.. well i all in all i hope that it will be a good nite for the hall 4 DnD committee!

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The quiz today was ok given that i din really study for it. I succumbed to the Z monster last nite. haha... but i was still super dupor tired when i got home today so i decided to nap b4 meeting Mel "to get his sis wedding gift".

When we parked the car at cineleisure, he was hurryin to somewhere. Found out that we were catching the show Casanova instead of shopping for the gift. I was super delighted since I wanted to watch that show for a while already.

Review: 4.5 stars

The costumes were VERY VERY elegant and nice. The scenery was superb! Simply love the show! I always love shows like that... those costumes.. It will be good if i can live in that era for a while. Sigh.... how i wish i could go to Venice now. Missed the first few minutes of the movie but all in all.. good show!
There was a scenario which implied that.. Having more sex partners wont make u a better lover but instead it will wear off the love you thought you have.. Wow..marvellous! There are also a few others meaningful sentences. Catch the show while u can... its going to end soon!

Saw Spencer today... he doesnt seem to like mi.. sob sob.. Think i din look too frenly too. Nvm.. am sure he will grow to like mi. What can a small dog do? haha.. i must try hard to get tt into my puny brain..

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