hmm i am so sad i cant go for the vancouver trip animore... all my hopes and dreams dashed.... sob sob sob.. but its okie i hope i can still go on a holiday with my frens..

i said sth to this good fren of mine tt dae and i found tt its so true so idecided to write it down so i can remember this foreva.. it juz pop into my mind tt day.
i said: if u noe that you are a genius in science and u are able to excel and get into the dean's list if u are in the engineerin course, would u choose business instead? u may like business but u do not noe ur prospects and u do not noe wat to expect.. given the same startin pay which will u choose? well some people might be risky enough and may choose the business course but for mi, i am risk averse.. i will definitely choose engineerin since it secures a better future.. i related this to relationships and i think it is true... do u agree?


and i made another joanne's analogy.. u pay 150 dollars for a pair of levis so that you own it and can wear it.. so why izit that u are not willing to spend 150 on a gift for ur gf to keep her by ur side and own her? i am not tryin to say that gers are materialistic creatures.. wat i am sayin is that sometimes u have to pamper ur gf and show them they are worthy and important... its true tt the cost is not an issue but its the thoughts that count but are u realli tt thoughtful in the veri first place? have u placed wat i like in front of cost?


tts all in the past so its not worth mentioning.. there is no point regrettin what has happened in the past coz things are not going to change.. the disappointment wont go awae.. the hope won revive... nothing is gg to be the same animore.. if u think i was demandin in the past...it takes lots more efforts than compared in the past to gain my trust and win my heart over so i dun wana hurt u and i don wana get hurt again.. u won promise mi i noe.. coz u cant.. i accept tt and i feel blessed we are still frens..


that dae i watched a show, "closer"... super not nice... but the natalie ger said sth she said tt if she like someone she will stick to him and wont leave him... i think she is veri generous.. even though jude law did sth real bad, she still went back to him juz because she like him.. how many gers can do tt? i cant realli accept tt.. but tt dae i did sth stupid and i dunno wat got into mi... but i shall not mention wat... so wheni am in a beta mood i will tok bout it...hehe

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it is valentine's dae! yeah! hahaha wats there to be so joyous bout?? i dunno...hahaha contradicting myself.. haha..

oh yeah the dnd committee set up a booth at can b selling brownies, wax, pen dolls and stuff like tt... it was quite a success all thanx to our frens who volunteered their $$ so readily hahaha... its so nice of them... *touched*... i realli think those brownies are worth buyin bcoz we spent the whole sundae doin it at jaime uncle's house haha... wow... his uncle is a definite definite eligible bachelor leh... 4 room flat.. living alone... house decently decorated... 30 yrs old.. etc etc...needless to sae claudia, margaret and mi went around exploring.. hoping to find so photographs of her uncle but think we are not in lucky. I have this feeling the love letters on the brownies definitely taste terrible since its been left in the open for a day.. haha... because of the stall i had to stay in skool up till 430pm! sob sob.... but its oki...pj and doggy are just so nice to wait there for mi..

Oh it was the nbs week too and there were lotsa freebies...yeah!!! haha there were tshirts, old chang kee, milk tea, ice cream, candy floss, free photoshoots+frames, xbox stations and so many stalls...quite interestin and impressive esp whenu see so many of ur frens managing and organizing...haha

the three of us decided to eat at marche... 3 pretty gers eating out on vadae!!! wat kinda vdae is this?? are the guys blind.. oops i am being so bhb.. actualli i got a few dates but bcoz i am such a nice person i pushed my dates off and accompanied my frens.. so loyal ah... so sorri zhilong and liqin.. din mean to dua u all but i realli forgot to msg u all back and sorry for the late confirmation.. can kill mi the next time k! Actualli i neva thought i was going out with my gal frens coz i tot i was gg out with edwin all along.. haha.. but i guess he is too busy.. perhaps with some chiobus.. who noes?

i was quite pissed off at first when he told mi last min that he couldnt make it.. i was fuming.. on fire.. think alot of guyz were angry with him too... hohoho.. so bhb ah.. i was so so determined to ignore him already... but at nite i received a phone call from my mummy sayin tt he sent sth over to my house.. i was so so shock.. naturally i rushed home to check out my presee.. it was a noel vdae gift.. there's two cute hippo..flowers and a big balloon... NICE NICE NICE! i realli like and appreciate the present..thank you! The card is sweet too but i wonder who wrote the msg... i doubt its written by him.. haha..

to edwin: But remember this! a present doesnt mean that i am not angry with you already!

oh i was curious bout whether the gift was ordered last min to appease my anger.. guess i have to ask him bout it hahaha......

Oh yah...my mom called mi in the afternoon and ask mi this,"why did u drive the car to skool? later how is the guy gg to pick u up??" when i told her i have no dates for tonight she was so so sacarstic... she said, "hahah u have no dates?? 没人要.. " and she hung up laughin... oh my god..have u seen a mom like tt?? and when i came home she was showin off the presees she got from my dad... flowers.. teddy bear and a bracelet.. she was totally totally behaving like a little girl in love!!! hahaha... actualli my dad is realli "good" he actualli ordered the flowers on sunday.. wow i hope that my hubby will oso do tt in future leh...

sigh... gers so superficial.. wat the magazines say was so so true.. singapore gers are so easily bought over leh... most guyz are ONLY doin their jobs on vdae and bdae.. and gers are juz waitin waitin waitin for tt dae to come...wat is this!!! i think guyz shd treat their gers well every single dae and not onli on vdae.. i dont mean material wise.. wat i mean is actions and words... i think tt will realli liven up and strngthen the relationship.. hehe.. i sound like i am veri experience hor? haha..

i am so luo suo hor...writing so much.. i feel happy mah after receiving so many gifts on vdae.. oh i forgot to show my appreciation to pj and dog.. thanx for the presees!

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its vdae...the day which i am not realli lookin forward to.. but guess wat! i got my first vdae present from jack half an hr ago！sins chocolate... hahaha... thanx alot! well i think this present will realli brighten and sweeten my day...haha..

i am looking forward to the ans which i have longed to find out...i think i will noe the answer todae...part of mi realli don wana face it but another part of mi urges mi to face the reality... so i muz brace myself for the outcome..wateva it is... i guess after todae all my doubts will be cleared i will face the consequences of the mess i have gotten meself into....

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there is this something which i have been tryin hard to understand but i cant...

an anlogy: i see a scoop of haagen dazs cookies and cream ice cream in front of mi.... i have crazings for it... but i noe that its bad.. its fattenin, its expensive and it should be left there, untouched... but i juz cant control myself...i feel so drawn to it.... i am delighted and feel blissful whenever i get to taste it.. my mind tells mi i have to avoid it but my stomach is telling mi to conquer it... so wat do i do?? i feel so torn... alot of times i tell myself i should not think bout it animore coz thinkin bout it will make mi crave for it more but sometimes its so hard to control... the more i try to avoid the more uneasy i feel... wat should i do? if i knew this was gg to happen i wouldnt have tasted it... i wouldnt even have taken a second look at it in the first place.. it seems to have disrupted my life in a wae....... should i take this temporary pleasure or should i avoid it?

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