Sentosa was great that day.... the musical fountain was really fantastic! Dont really know where my camera is so cant upload the photos.... The company was great too! Maybe thats why I enjoyed myself so much... Ended the night at wala wala.... EIC and beer.... What more could i ask for? :)

I went for Salsa class yesterday.... Kelvin woke mi up in time. I nearly forgot the bout the whole thing. It was fun... 123.. 456. It was a partner rotation thingy since there wasnt enough guys. Some of the guys couldnt spin me since i was way too tall. It was quite funny.... Cant wait for the next class... hmmm maybe in no time i can be dancing at those salsa clubs! Cant wait...

I have officially banned butter factory and i am never going to go back there unless necessary. I am quite mean... I forbid all my closest friends to step to that club. Hahaha.... I am still so angry... Gotten over but still so angry......

Cant wait for the big day!! Wonder how it will be.... Will be shopping for the present for myself soon! Still cant decide what I wana get for myself. I am gg to be a quarter of a century old. How sad is that..... Think i asked too many people to st james on Sat. Hope it will be fun for all!

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hmmm ok.... back with the blog again.... wonder if my frens still visit this. Possibly not.

Anyway the last relationship ended as well. Why? I am not too sure myself. Hahaha it just did. It was bad at the beginning but it got better... I met so many old frens... so so many.... many told me things that hurt me... many talk to me and made me realise things i din see. A handful just stood by me.... very nice..... Well its all over... no more tears, just memories.... Weekends feel empty but I guess I will get used to it.

Off to sentosa! Tataz~!

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Its been a long long time since I felt this happy. Havent had such a stable relationship with anyone for a long time. It was really tough settling down and get my flawed idea of relationship all on the right track. The countless number of quarrels and scream fights were really scary.

He is the first and only guy who can reason with me on the phone over the same issue till i am convinced. Also the first and only one who says he loves me after every war of ours (i think we feel like punching each other when we quarrel). He tells me patiently that breakup shouldnt be the solution to our relationship coz its has never come across his mind. Pops me a message out of the blue to say he misses me and that never fail to put a smile on my face.

He swears all the time and i can really kill him for that. He cant speak ten sentences without the F*** word. Never fail to frown. Dance around like a little boy. The most amazing part is trying to convince me with his "Wayne's theory". If he sees this he is going to rebut again. But hell this is my blog :) Best part of all.... his favourite favourite activity is to fart in my face. One day i am gg to shove a radish up his ass so the poisonous gas will just make him explode. Heehee.

I am very happy cause he finally got offered by the bank he wants. Congrats! He has snapped out of his moody phase which mean i will be happy too. He got into Citibank. I hope things will only get better moving into phase 2 of our lives. I am crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.

Its funny how we got to know each other and its even funnier we are still happily attached.

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I realize i have this very very bad habit of pushing problems to the back of my head. To a place where its hidden. As long as I am in my comfort zone, nothing else matters. I don't like it. In general i don't like ppl who are like that but why am i doing the same?

I think i am starting to become a person i am not. I used to be very "cool" bout lotsa things which were going on around me. Be it my partner and friends but recently i fee that i am overly concern bout certain things thats going on in my life. Certain reactions were probably sparked off by my bad mood and certain were just cause i didnt know how to react to the situation.

I hate it when people ask mi whats my problem cause if i knew then it probably isnt a problem to start with,

Many should know i am in a relationship by now. Seriously its been so long since i have a proper relationship and i dont really know what to expect. There are so many voices around me thats clouding my whole mind. Its really disturbing. Relationships arent that simple anymore. Its not just being happy anymore. Its that plus a lot more. I get mixed feelings all the time. I dunno if i can handle it. I have many failed rs thats why i tell my frens neva to get involve in too many. Coz rs are like candies, they can rot your teeth (or perceptions toward rs). Guess i just gotta wait and see although i am going to be under the "phase out" or "obsolete" category in a few years. Maybe then i will console myself by saying that its the soul that matters.

I am glad my bf said those things he said bout settling down with me but i will not take that as a promise. (so if u are reading this dont worry! i feel happy when u say things like that but i have neva taken that as a promise from you) I believe in a rs its bout getting to know a person. If any party feels that the other party isnt suitable. Please opt out. That way one wont put anyone through the agony of living together. But as for now, other than a few quarrels, everything is bright and green.

For work, life's good. I am at my new job and this is truly a 9 to 6 job. Anyway am working at Morgan Stanley now if there are still people who reads my blog dunno bout it. Well dont really wana talk bout work coz its kinda sensitive.

Alritey will go wash up and go to bed. I truly hope that next week and weekend will be wonderful unlike the 2 weekends tt just past.

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I hate to ask ppl for favours cause when u ask, there are certain expectations that come with all these requests. When the expectations arent met, disappointment follows. Thats when all the emotional shit gets involved. Maybe thats why i hate to be seen as a "needy" person.

Someone once ask mi who are the people i can rely on. I paused and thought thru for what seems to be the longest period of time. Well there are really a few people i can rely on when i meet with a problem. They are basically sinyee, lili, panjia, liqin, jack and ruihang, Thats considered quite a few right? haha... They are the people whom i think will help mi out when i have a problem especially sy and ll! thanx for all the help for the past few days... really appreciate.

Being outta job for too long is really not too good a choice. I wish i can start work right away tomorrow so that i can take my mind off things i dont want to think about and look at things in a much less complex manner. When u have abundant time, u tend to think bout every little thing. Sigh life is good but not good now. Sounds contradicting. yeah thats exactly how i am feeling now. What i am writing may sound ridiculous to you but if u are feeling wat i am feeling now, u will understand. Nite. Ciaoz.

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I cannot really remember the last time i saw him. It is this incident that made me realize that i haven been meeting up with my family members.

This young boy has an inquisitive mind. He will always be asking me for advice and opinion about every little thing. There are times where i am taken aback by his questions. Most of the time i will just try to give me most genuine opinion. He is open to opinion although he has his own mind set.

Family is obviously important to him. He is a filial son and an independent boy. Despite his busy schedule, he forked out time to teach tuition so as not put on pressure on his mom's financials. He will always make it a point to update his concerned mom on the little happenings in his life.

I was absent during the last family gathering due to some personal matters and i deeply regret it. The last time i saw him was at my sister's birthday party. I was giving my cousins, inclusive of weicheng, some advice on how to bowl. He had the highest score amongst the 3 guys that were bowling. A guy with great determination indeed.

I remember there was another time i saw him at jurong east mrt station. We were both coming down the escalator. I look at him and told him "wow you look toned, not bad ah, got muscles already..." He blushed and tried to brush it off. He used to be a plump boy but he has become a fine young man over these years.

My siblings and I have this strong attachment to him and his brother. At CNY gatherings, we will always be together, trying to entertain ourselves. We made it a point to be together during festivals. He will come over to our place to watch soccer and sometimes we will have meals together at our place. He will send me msges to ask if i am gg for gatherings and wat time i will be there. He called my ex-bf to ask bout the uni courses he was interested in. He ask me wat he should do to ensure he can succeed in future. He has many many dreams and ambitions. I cannot imagine gatherings without him. No more yearly KTVs sessions where he and my sis do their mic hogging acts.

I am really surprise how he made it to the national team in the short span of 2 years after taking up the sport. He did tell me he joined dragon boat but i tot its only for leisure. I am proud of his achievement, being in the national team and the vice captain of safsa dragon boat team.

During his funeral, I was hoping he would turn up suddenly and say its all a mistake. I was praying so hard for a miracle which i know will never come. I cant help waking up in the morning with tears in my eyes. I really cannot believe i am never ever gg to see him again. Please bless ur mom and brother. You will be missed dearly. Thanks for being in my life.

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Ok i am not talking bout anyone now. My definition of a relationship is simple. I want both of us to be happy. Being happy brings about trust and love. Therefore being happy is the root to making a relationship work. Definitely both parties will not be happy most of the time but once the conflict/unhappiness is resolved, everything shd be back to normal. There is simply no point in harping on the unhappiness. Not value adding at all.



Analogy: A pushed B and B fell onto the floor in a basketball game. B hurt his knee cap. A was remorseful and apologise frantically. Should B just forgive him and stop mentioning it anymore? Or should B be angry and keep bringing up the incident even after many many days? Hello!! A has eyes, he will be reminded of his mistake everytime he meets B and sees the scar on his knees. He will definitely feel bad about it and it was an accident!


Someone made me lose my self confidence by flagging out all my bad points. It was after I left him that I realise I am worth much more. I am never ever going to let anyone make me feel that way anymore. Helping each other change for the better is definitely good but accidentally dashing each other's ego is a big NO NO.


Over the years, I have learnt to take a step back in relationship and look at the bigger picture. If something is not going to work out, i will not force myself upon it anymore. Leave before the feelings get outta hands. Guys are always better when it comes to managing hurt. Girls will just crumble. I am talking bout in general. When things dont work out, i hope i will just smile and tell myself, "there will be a better guy out there for you".


There are certain implied meaning in certain conversations i choose to ignore. Think what u want to and if u think that i am not worth the time, leave.

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