Today is 4 July and i have another month or so before i officially start work. This is getting quite boring. Everyday i have so much time to waste. though i have ppl to go out with it just seems that its so meaningless to to go out for the sake of going out. Somehow i regretted selecting the last date for entry to the company. Doggy Koh is leaving for China on friday... which means that no more late nite chats. So sad.

I made a decision last saturday, i broke up with melvin. Sigh everything is getting too complicated and maybe i just want to be alone. He is really nice to me and i know that he really loves me. Really really appreciate him in my life. In these 5 months there are many many good memories and very few bad ones. I will always keep all these memories with me.

I feel like a villain. I feel that i have hurt him and i do not wish that to continue, simply bcoz he is a good man and i do not want to hurt him further. Many people have reprimanded me for my decision but i know that this is best for him.

I believe in fate. If 2 person are fated to be together, they eventually will be. Currently i have totally no interest in BGR. Maybe because i am tired from all these. I used to think that its only bout 2 ppl falling in love but now i realise its more than that. I want a simple relationship and i want to fall in love. I dont want to go into one for the sake of it.

Oh i talk to my ex, tony, the other day. From the way he made things sound, he feels that i still like him. Well although at times i am irrational, i know better where to put my feelings. And maybe he is not too clear, my motive is always to keep him as a fren coz i feel that he is a nice person. However sometimes when i feel that its not worth it, i will give up. I really wanted to laugh when he told me all the things he told me. I felt abit insulted but its ok coz i feel that i am not senile and i do remember what happened in the past.

ok gtg... gotta prepare myself for a good dinner! Cya guys!

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