i realise that this whole time i haven realli posted things that i realli wana sae... afraid of ppl's thoughts and stuff... but i think i will just post wat i wana sae and ignore what other people think of mi...

the other day i had dinner with sinyee, think its our first dinner together... as in onli the two of us... i got to know her since primary skool so i think u can sae tt we saw each other grow up.. but amazingly we got closer onli recently.. i was more open bout my thoughts towards her onli recently. she told mi she felt that i don realli have luck in my relationships and after much thought i agreed. hahaha....have neva realli thought of that b4 but yesh.. now i realise.. i never have good endings with the guy i like hahaha... like recently.. so i begin to think of a solution. maybe i shd not think bout all these things for the time being. haha.. take myself from all relationships and let myself think thru wat i realli want.

i appreciated the talk i had with sinyee the other dae coz it made mi realise the "wrong" thing bout mi...i never realli thought of my luck in relationships hahah.. there are some ppl who are treatin mi realli nicely now.. i dont wana list the names but i realli noe k... even though i do not sae, i noe u guys care.. did alot for mi.. accompany mi when i am down..

i want to tell u all some things coz i dun want u guys to be wasting ur time, money or efforts.. currently i have no desire to get into a relationship. i dunno if i have gotten over edwin, i don want to cheat u all. i need to sort out my thoughts. don stop just for mi coz i can tell u its not worth it.. i can still be frens if u all want to but if u guys are thinkin of anithing more than frenship maybe u all shd just move on. i realli dunno how to tell u all directly so i think this is the best way.

was reading the blog of ivan's fren just now.. i shd have some goals of my own too.. k lets see...
- stay chirpy and happy
- be smiling like an idiot the whole time (aim for the moon coz even if u fall u will fall amongst the stars hahah....)
- forget all the unhappy stuff
- be more magnaminous

my fren dared mi to put my criteria for guys in my blog... haha bad move coz i will put it in.. don care wat others think of mi hahaha....
- older than mi
- taller than mi
- someone who talks with a certain attitude (wat kind? i dunno, but this is the most impt criteria)
- i can feel chemistry
- cannot be a miser to mi (quite sensitive ah)
- someone i look up upon(impt too)

looks are not impt at all.......hahah its the truth...okie tts all! my bet! hahaha

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